Sunday, December 4, 2011

So what's up?

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      Like any other a-little-above-minimum-wage earner, I am feeling the necessity to look for greener pasture or the temptation to let the couch serve me for maybe a month.
     I am at the point of working without a point. I eat what I earn. That's good but ain't good enough. Living for a year on a survival mode is like wasting time and energy. The company is not paying for my lost time, it is simply paying me for doing my job. For this reason, I want to look for a job that will both pay my labor and my time, meaning, one that can make me survive and really earn to save.
     I am always the type of a worker who never shuts my mouth. I hate it. I always blab about how I feel and what I want to be changed. I kept on spreading updates regardless whether my friends want to hear or not. Anyway, I 've been trying to convince myself that I have to resign for the reasons previously stated. I do this convincing thing through declaration, hoping that I would hear my own words and that these words would sink in.
    I am afraid to let go. I am afraid to waste my time during transition. I know, during that period, I would count the losses I have and regret of supposed profits If I stayed.
     I need to find a higher reason to quit, or should I say, I have to have a higher reason before even considering quitting. If God would not want me to do a thing, then I'll be still. However, if I am certain, that my uncertainty is enough to make me stop, then, it's time.
     In my timeline, a lot of resources have already been kept and not yet invested. In my timeline, I need to pursue my career before having a baby. In my timeline, I have to earn more than before, because I am still young and I have to save more for my future.
     God holds the Time. He is The Alpha and The Omega. He thinks about my life more than I think about it. This life is not my problem, what I need to do is seek Him and ask Him, what I've gotta do, for this very moment, He'll take care of my tomorrow.